I am angry
The daughters were never afraid. They were occupied.
i am angry
in a way that has roots.
in a way that goes back centuries
before i was born.
in a way that knows the names of the women
who were burned for knowing too much,
who were locked away for feeling too deeply,
who were told their pain was hysteria
hysteria
from the greek
for uterus
as if grief was birthed in the womb
and not in the world that made it.
my anger
is not a malfunction.
my anger
is the most logical response
to an illogical amount of loss.
—
and still –
god –
and still –
i love being in this body.
i love the way fury feels
when it finally has a name.
i love the women who taught me
that play & ferocity
are not opposites –
that you can cry
& still be dangerous
that you can grieve
& still be standing
that you can be broken open
& that it’s not the same
as being broken.
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